This thoughts that keep you up at night.....

Xaiver has Autism. Yes...he is high-functioning. Yes...he is so wonderful and perfect. Yes...he can actually talk now. But, Yes, he still talks in nonsense alot. He re-enacts scenes from his memory more than he actually has original conversations. Socially...he is the proverbial butterfly, LOL. He LOVES people and is NOT AFRAID TO SHOW IT. It is the opposite of being non-social. He is HYPER social, if you will.

I said all that to say this...there are moments when I am frozen with terror that my baby will be made fun of...or not understood. Will he move out of this stage? Am I doing all I can? Would his life be better with a more aggressive Mommy?

I know...you're all going to tell me what I really do already know: He has a good Mommy...you can't question.....he is perfect!~ But I wouldn't be a woman if I didn't worry, right?

And then there is the Patton guilt! DO I spend enough time and energy on her? Will she hate me for worrying about Xavier so much?

AHHHHHHH......I know these are horrible (probably not to be mentioned thoughts) but this is my blog and I am keeping it real, OK?