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So...today was a great day for The X. Man. He talked to Grandmama on the phone and actually told her that his name is Xavier and that he is 3 years old. Also, he has a sister named Patton. Yeah!
So today, progress has been witnessed...it is tangible..I heard it. But, there are days NOT like today. There have been times that it seemed like Xavier didn't understand a single word I said. When you are a Mommy...yet..even a Mommy of a special needs child...you worry. You worry about so many things. Like: will he make friends? Will he ever be able to get married and have a normal life? Will he work somewhere besides Mcdonalds wiping the trays (please...I am seriously not picking fun!) This is my life now. I cry. ALOT. I KNOW I shouldn't, but I do. I love this little man with all my soul..and to imagine him hurt in ANY way....breaks up my heart in a million pieces.
I am thrilled with each new step he takes! He really is doing great, but it's the 'unknowns' that keep me awake at night. Thank God for his pre-school...they are really helping my little guy...they can ruin all the shirts they need to, LOL. Ps..the stains are barely noticable).
I don't want this post to be a downer...but maybe a glimpse into this world I live in. I know it's all going to be ok...but I can't help but worry sometimes.
In lighter news....YIKES...Someone needs to remind me to spell check!~ LOL...I was reading my post from yesterday and I can't believe how bad it is. I need to be kicked out of the 'Former Teachers Association'!
Love, C.
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Already sent the pictures of the little darlings around to all my friends.....they are just so beautiful. We get to see you in a couple weeks.....love Grandmama
Ok, no worries about "will he get married and live a normal life" These days, WHAT IS NORMAL? Cause I would love to know. Get this, I know a guy, SMART, GORGEOUS, RICH,,,,,has is all, not married, because no one can STAND HIM. God takes care of us, you know that, just keep reminding yourself, he has a plan, it is all worked out in the stars, girl. Now, you keep reminding ME of that when I get down. I worry too. Hugs and love and kisses!
T
Look at the progress 6 months has made! Think about how many "6 month chunks" there are until you'd even be wondering about him getting married! He'll get there! The most important thing is having YOU for a mother. A mother's unconditional love is the best therapy in the world! Mua!
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