I can't seem to wrap my mind around it. 7 years since my sweet baby sister was murdered by a punk who found it necessary to run from the police since he was high. I normally try to not focus on the accident..I mean, we can't bring her back. I try to remember her laugh. Her "Whats up, Dike" Her desire to pick me up EVERYTIME I saw her. "Are you two Sisters? NO....YEESSS!~!" Her smile...laugh. The sound of her voice.
BUT sometimes...It still feels so fresh and raw. My parents, who I love more than anything...have NEVER been remotely the same (who am I kidding...neither have I). There are times I am in absolute despair. I remember the days before she died, life was great! Life is great now, too..but different. SO many things/people are not a part of my life now that were then. It sometimes doesn't seem real.
I am so lucky to have my husband, children, parents and brother still. I KNOW that...but is it so wrong to want her back? The life of our party is gone, so to speak and I don't like it! Brett was wonderful...and I really hope I keep her memory alive and well...
Sorry..I think this post has rambled away from me.
Do me a favor. Spread the word. If you knew Brett....go out today and fnd yourself a Krispy Kreme. Keep the Phat Girl Club alive and kicking!
Oh...
and if you DO drink...don't drive. It's simple.
*~* In Loving Memory of Brett Patton Ford 11/28/80-10/01/2000*~*
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It seems like yesterday. I still hear her laugh, see her smile and laugh at her wit!!! A stranger left a void in our lives and we'll never be the same. Don't drink and drive and hug your child as often as you can!!!! Love Grand-ma-ma....in memory of Brett
I know where you are coming from. I miss her too, terribly. I can't keep from talking about her, even people that didn't know her, know her now. Ok, I am getting teary now, going for a Krispy Kreme... kisses all.
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